and then I don't even feel bad.
I consider myself a cool-headed person. I don't easily get angry and I make a point not to take my ill-humored moods out on other people.
What kills me is when other people don't try as hard to be pleasant and then I end up having to try twice as hard for the both of us. It's wearing, and at times extremely grating.
It's the pits when it all builds up and I break my own rules of civility.
It's the dumps.